bjcarlisle (bjcarlisle) wrote,

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Some closure...

After speaking to some of my friends/family, I have come to grips with the fact that the dude I was really into and I did have one major thing not in common--the fact that he wanted sex on the 2nd date and that i wouldn't give it to him.

But I still wanted closure for myself, cause even though we only had 2 dates, I think I was in love with him. We had talked since last April so I had gotten to know him fairly well.

So this morning, I sent him an email. I never expect to get a response back, but it felt good to get it out there. Here's what I wrote:

Hope you had a great weekend. :) I would say hope you enjoyed your holiday yesterday, but I guess the past month has been your holiday. :D

I had a good time New Years weekend, sorry that you didn't feel the same. I wanted to let you know that I won't say anything to your sister about your newest tattoo or what happened Saturday night. Of course with all the warm weather we've been having, its probably been pretty hard to keep your arm covered, so at this point you might have already told her. Trust me, I know all about trying to hide stuff like that from your family. The day after New Years, I went shopping with my mother and had to wear a turtleneck sweater in 65-degree weather. Fun stuff :P

Any way, just wanted to let you know what a great guy I think you are and to wish you all the best as you start back to work. Okay, I'll shut up now before I plagiarize Freddie Fender even more.

I prayed a lot this weekend. And I think I'm on my way to being okay with this, and what's even better is that I think I'm on my way to being okay with me. Which is something I haven't been in a long time.
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